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How did I get here?
Lately I’ve been feeling the impulse to pray – sometimes just at random or when I learn of someone else’s misfortune and want to send good wishes for them into the universe, and sometimes as a way to get through some of the more difficult moments of my daily life. I close my eyes, focus my thoughts, and search for the words that will put me in touch with the divine.
That’s when I run into a bit of a problem. All the prayers I know are Catholic.
. . . a question so vast, it’s hard to know where to begin. So I might as well start here.
Welcome to Experience Pearls: the place where one lonely Netizen fills cyberspace with thoughts and ideas that might take an entire rainforest to express if she hand-wrote them all in paper journals. Instead, she’ll express this part of her journey on the Internet, for everyone or no one to read, consider, and probably judge.
Well, at least it’s at least a good chance to practice resisting the lure of somebody else’s judgment. If anybody is reading at all . . .
The question came to mind when I realized I didn’t know what to call myself anymore. Catholic by birth and breeding, I’m not sure I believe enough of Catholic dogma to wear that label in any honesty. I love the seasonal rituals of earth-based and pagan faiths, and the rhythmic daily practices of Buddhist traditions, but I don’t know enough about either to confidently say, “Yes, that’s me”. I think Buddhist doctrine (such as it is) probably comes closest to expressing what I believe about life, afterlife, and faith in general, but I hesitate to walk away from that Catholic label I’ve had all my life. And exactly where do my tarot cards fit into this whole big mess anyway?!?
Thus, like pretty well everybody else in my generation, I’ve come to the Internet for answers. Except these answers don’t really exist, at least not anywhere outside of me. So this blog becomes a tool to help me figure out exactly what’s in my soul by letting it out for the whole world to see.